Austin Foster

I have been holding this off since October. Austin was my boyfriend/best friend/everything for two years. He did everything for me and was beyond the perfect boy friend. He was, and still is, sooo sexy. We were inseparable. However, it did have it's down sides-I lost many of my friends and if i wasn't hanging out with him he would get mad and wouldn't trust me. That was when I had to call it quits. It broke my heart to tell him I couldn't date him anymore and it seemed he was pretty hurt too. We decided that we still liked each other It just didn't want all the obligations of dating. We still told each other we loved each other, because we did. Up until the next week when he decided to have sex with a girl who is better known for the things that she does on the mattress. That was when I really hit rock bottom. I had no one. No friends, no boy friend, and my sister was gone to college. He was the person I would go to when things went wrong. He knew everything about me. Too bad sex was worth losing it all. Now it is beyond weird, I can barely look at him without wanting to cry and hug him. When he asks me how I'm doing I just want to say "The way I was when you did that to me, hurt". But I cant. I just wish he knew how much I suffered and I wish that I could say I don't have feelings for him anymore-but that would be a lie. At the end of the day he screwed me over and that is something that cant be undone.